It just figures right?

Apparently M and I are taking a break from our relationship. Whatever that means. I kind of expected something like this to happen. It's not my fault, and it's not really hers either. (Well, I don't blame her) But she's so stressed over moving and stuff, and she says she's not emotionally ready for a relationship. Which probably means that she's just worried about moving and what kind of strain that might put on us. I knew something was up. And part of me is relieved because hopefully that's one less thing for her to stress over. And part of me is just like, ehhh...

And I feel kind of nauseous because of it...

It's just that I can't do anything about it, and it's not my fault. And I'm not blaming her either but, I have to deal with it anyways. Because life isn't fair. They just had to move a month after we got together. And I don't even deserve to complain because I'm not the one moving.

*bangs head on desk*

But, if she's less stressed now, it's worth it.

I'm hoping that after this whole moving thing settles we can get back together.

But who knows how long that'll take? And if it'll even happen or not? (And with my luck...)

And yeah, we're still friends of course. I'd be far more broken if we weren't. (I'd be too busy being horribly depressed to write about it here) I trust her more than anyone else. (She's been my friend for like, two years now maybe, so yeah. Don't be all "after only a month!?") She's the only person I can blankly just say what's on my mind too.

But yeah, all this proves to me is that life sucks. And that there is some truth to Murphy's law. But what else is new?

~Riku