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6 September, 2008 - 2:59am — Riku

Okay, as far as sexuality goes, I've generally given up on labels. My sexuality is apparently really fluid. Okay so whatever.

It amuses me though, that now that I'm identifying as male, I'm still quite a bit gay. XD

But it makes sense, because I've always had this inexplicable envy for gay guys, and just guys in general.. Well, it's not so inexplicable anymore, but it was at the time.

Although, I get the feeling that some of it is just me hating my body and stuff. Gods, how old do you have to be for a mastectomy? I want them gone ASAP. I easily prefer scars to these. And even the binders I made for myself are starting to hurt since I've been wearing them daily... I really don't want to damage my ribs or anything. D: I can't wait for it to start being freezing cold out. One word, layers.

Speaking of those binders, someone wanted to know how I made them? I do have pictures and I can put together a guide-type-thing if you're still interested. It won't be all that comprehensive and you'll probably have to mess around a bit before it works but it's something. I don't know how well it would work on big-busted people either. So yeah... Just putting that out there 0w0;

Also, I need a monologue for auditions in five days. :O I've never picked out a monologue for myself before, so I dunno what I'm gonna do for that. ^^

But wow... It's kind of interesting. I was SOOOO shy and anti-social and awkward as a "girl". And now that I'm presenting myself properly it's like I'm a new person. I have an easier time talking to people, and everything. It's great. :) I just wish I didn't have to deal with the crowd who knows me as "female" from last year. DX;

~Riku

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6 September, 2008 - 9:27am — jeff

Hmm...

My guess is 18, but the bigger issue is if it's part of transitioning, if I recall properly, you have to get the approval of a psychiatrist or somesuch that's counseled you. Even if you're 18 and have the money, you can't just get them removed... well, in the U.S. anyway, many other countries are happy to oblige if you have the money.

Which is the other thing, this is an expensive thing and rarely, if ever, covered my most insurance plans, so it's like tens of thousands of dollars (at least to go MTF, not sure if it's any cheaper the other way around), so even if you transition, live as male, come out, get hormones, and therapy, you still have to pay for the surgery out of pocket. Unless you're totally rich or something...

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6 September, 2008 - 2:01pm — Riku

I know about the therapy and

I know about the therapy and the expensive. 0w0 I'm seeing a therapist later this month, so the ball will be rolling there. I figure I shouldn't have trouble convincing a therapist that I'm a boy because I am a boy. I honestly can't see myself as a girl... I think you need a certain amount of therapy before you can get the letter for that but I'll have to wait until I'm at least 18 anyways, which is over two years from now, and plus I need time to work up the money. My dad said he'd help me pay too, but with this divorce going on nobody knows where we're gonna be money-wise by then... And I'm going to save up for it. It'll be hard but not impossible. I've never heard of top surgery being more than ten thousand dollars, I think it's more around like, $3,500 to $8,000 for top surgery, which still isn't cheap but yeah. I'm willing to work towards it. And I have no interest in bottom surgery. Because for FTMs it sucks, and is REALLY expensive. And I doubt that they're doing a whole lot to change that. DX

6 September, 2008 - 11:33pm — Adam A